Every Easter...without fail my family and I would definitely go to Nilai Memorial Park after church coz tats where we'll go visit my grandma...the person I hold dear most but this time we went a day earlier.
My grandma has gone back to God for 5 years now and that day was the day I will never forget for the rest of my life. I dont know why but although I always thought I have moved on but everytime I'm there... looking at her picture, tears would fill my eyes even though I would hold on to them so that no one will realise. I guess its because I miss her a lot and many times I wished she was still around to see me progress through the different stages of my life.
She is the person I hold dear most because although we argued a lot and there were times I felt like I hated her...somehow love surpasses all and I still hold on to lots of memories of her spending time with me...and of course the temporary feeling of hate was actually because I loved her dearly and when she let me down (she was aging and her mind was not right sometimes) I got dissapointed.
Many people would think that grandparents are a burden but for me it never was. Just having her around at home, listening to her share her experiences and learning from my grandma, her cooking (love her cooking...the greatest!!).
My greatest regret was not telling her my true feelings and how much I love her before she went back to God...I remembered her telling me her last words although I was blur and didn't know. But after that, upon reflection....I realised she did expressed her true feelings before she died. No matter what, I am glad that now she's with God her true home and I will meet her someday...nevertheless she's always in my heart and I will never stop missing her.
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