After slacking for so long...returning back to life as a medical student has been really hard. Plus, life in sem5 isnt getting any easier.
Classes...spread out through the whole day. From morning till evening, with hospital visits and clinical teaching sessions in between...energy seems to be drained constantly from my body. Feel tired all the time...and even with extra sleep...I just cant get up in the mornings.
How nice if I'm like the energizer bunny that doesnt need rest and I can like study and also be mentally prepared for all my lessons.
I'm still finding my way through tackling this system and also fitting in revision time for my finals in July too!! Finals!! The scariest exam of all!! Only 3 months left...
At the same time...Can't wait for the ball next Sat...Hopefully it'll be really fun!!
Really hope to just stuff my head with studying only and nothing else...Hopefully i'll succeed in doing that!! =p
Friday, March 24, 2006
Thursday, March 02, 2006
A LeSSoN LeaRnT ThE HaRD WaY...
Everyone hates feeling helpless in any situation unless you're craving for attention. Well, today I encountered something that did make me feel helpless.
Driving to kickboxing class at Hartamas, my car started overheating...I started to panic but tried to the max to remain calm. Luckily saw a parking space and I parked there. I got out of my car to check. I was clueless about cars so I called my mum. She told me to let the car cool and then check the water level in the radiator.
Well...after waiting a while, I tried to open it...but I was scared to open it. So i decided to just walk to the kickboxing centre and hav my class first.
After class, I checked it again..and I still didnt have the guts to open the cap which says, "Do Not Open! Caution! Hot!" So I saw another cap...it was connected to the radiator cap anyway... so I filled it up. I was totally scared but I had no choice...my brother was of no help...coz he was blurer than I was and all I could think of was HOME!!
Tried to drive home...and my car smelt like burning...and it died...in the middle of the road.
I was terrified and the drivers behind me weren't of any help...they hon me like crazy with angry faces. I finally managed to start it again...and made my way to the main road outside my housing area where this time, it just wouldn't move anymore.
Called my parents and they finally came. Turns out...I was stupid enough to fill up the wrong cap..the danger cap was the right one. The one I was afraid to open.
I always hate feeling helpless...I always want to be confident in what I do. But ever since I got into med school and today's incident...my pride has been tested many, many times.
I think that it also applies to our relationship with God. We being human tend to want to be independent. We want to feel confident, powerful, admired and so we would do anything to make sure we feel that way. But being human, we also fall into the world of helplessness. It is then we realise that in the end, despite how much we try to protect ourselves...God is the only One who can protect us from anything. We realise that we need God. We start to turn to Him for help just like my situation today. I thought I could handle things without my parents. But I couldn't. I needed them in the end coz they know whats best. Its the same with God. He will always be there for us, even when we think we don't need Him. He will still be faithful to us, waiting for us to turn our eyes upon Him.
Driving to kickboxing class at Hartamas, my car started overheating...I started to panic but tried to the max to remain calm. Luckily saw a parking space and I parked there. I got out of my car to check. I was clueless about cars so I called my mum. She told me to let the car cool and then check the water level in the radiator.
Well...after waiting a while, I tried to open it...but I was scared to open it. So i decided to just walk to the kickboxing centre and hav my class first.
After class, I checked it again..and I still didnt have the guts to open the cap which says, "Do Not Open! Caution! Hot!" So I saw another cap...it was connected to the radiator cap anyway... so I filled it up. I was totally scared but I had no choice...my brother was of no help...coz he was blurer than I was and all I could think of was HOME!!
Tried to drive home...and my car smelt like burning...and it died...in the middle of the road.
I was terrified and the drivers behind me weren't of any help...they hon me like crazy with angry faces. I finally managed to start it again...and made my way to the main road outside my housing area where this time, it just wouldn't move anymore.
Called my parents and they finally came. Turns out...I was stupid enough to fill up the wrong cap..the danger cap was the right one. The one I was afraid to open.
I always hate feeling helpless...I always want to be confident in what I do. But ever since I got into med school and today's incident...my pride has been tested many, many times.
I think that it also applies to our relationship with God. We being human tend to want to be independent. We want to feel confident, powerful, admired and so we would do anything to make sure we feel that way. But being human, we also fall into the world of helplessness. It is then we realise that in the end, despite how much we try to protect ourselves...God is the only One who can protect us from anything. We realise that we need God. We start to turn to Him for help just like my situation today. I thought I could handle things without my parents. But I couldn't. I needed them in the end coz they know whats best. Its the same with God. He will always be there for us, even when we think we don't need Him. He will still be faithful to us, waiting for us to turn our eyes upon Him.
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